DEAR LITHE (LOVE LETTERS) 29 Apr 2015
I am very much in the zone with the EarnedInWinter challenge. I participated in the Lithe Spring Clean and TMINUS30 last year. Something about the daily hashtag calendar really showed how we band together to support each other in Lithe and life.
I’m not sure if my current state is completely inspired by Lithe, but I can’t think of anything else in my life that has had such an impact. I make Lithe a priority during packed workdays and weekends. I am single and always searching for the right guy. Last year, I posted during the TMINUS30 challenge, “single, is not a status, it’s a word that describes a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others.” At that point, I was building the strength to allow my health, mind, and body to be the focus and to take the attention away from the seemingly woeful single life.
Now I'm shedding the fat. At first, it had nothing to do with body fat at all. There are a few men in my life that come and go. They reach out whenever they want. I acquiesce, thinking that’s all I deserve. A transient, temporary situation, at best. Friends say that you manifest what you portray you deserve. In some ways I take full responsibility for the type of situation I attract. I was almost eager for that random text/email to make plans with a guy. I found myself saying, “maybe this time he’ll be different.” We all know the answer to that hope.
Since I’ve delved into the challenges, I feel myself becoming stronger and wiser. As I gain more muscle definition, use higher weights, and watch inches fall away, I am redefining myself on the inside as well. I’ve sent a few courtesy no thank you texts to those who reach out to me intermittently to hang out without any intention of a serious relationship. I am reshaping and restructuring my heart, as well as my body.
I know Lithe hearts my heart, but now I'm beginning to heart my heart as well.
Thank you, thank you, thank you,